Frustration!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This weekend just was not my weekend and today doesn't seem to be any better! I get so frustrated with everything! I can't just get up and get myself whatever I need I have to rely on my husband for that. What sucks even more is he has been working most weekends too.  I get so lonely and bored. By time my husband gets off work and comes home he is too tired to do anything. Right now I can't find the tv remote well I can't get up and go on a mad hunt so all I have right now is my computer and internet. It has been 8 weeks now and it is getting to me really bad! It doesn't help that I seem to be in an irritated mood either. Bed rest does not help mood swings at all I think it makes them so much worse, it also makes its hard to have any good days at all. I get and stay depressed so much easier! Also I have no clue what happened to my referral to the specialist, tomorrow makes 2 weeks and still nothing! I feel sorry for the dr I see tomorrow she is going to have a very unhappy patient on her hands! These drs need to get their act together! It also doesn't help with the holidays coming up and no family around. I am also frustrated cause I can't go Christmas shopping, yeah I know I can do it online but it's not the same. Also you can't get stocking stuffers online. Anything I buy online for my husband he will see where it was bought and will figure it out from there! Ugh I am just hating everything right now, I cried all afternoon yesterday and today is looking like a posssible repeat! P.S. I am not doing this again! Looks like I will only have one kid I can't take this again!